Here are some things that The Drummer and I can do to get each other in shape:
Yoga - he's got yoga mat and six yoga classes as a gift from me and it's time for him to use them. Plus, it's great mental focus.
Aerial acrobatics - I am dying to try this. My friend Dave did it with his now wife last year. I want to do it for two reasons: 1) I've never done anything like this before and it's very Cirque de Soleil; and 2) the class is only gay men and hot ladies. Fun.
Kickboxing/Boxing - I want to get my inner aggressor and bring him to the surface. I think it would be a great workout.
Krav Maga - Along these lines, my friend Tin has done Krav Maga and thinks it's something to do. I'm game.
Running - I need to sign up for another marathon. So I want to get training.
Groov3 - it's a hip hop dance workout that's similiar in format to Zumba. But it's amazing! And a fun place to sweat it all out. Need to get back to class for sure!
Let's start 2012 with a big bang and get those six back abs because I want to wear hot swimsuits or nothing at all that the beach this summer.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Cleanse 2012: Day Three
Today is the 6th month anniversary for me and The Drummer. The past six months have been amazing. I'm in love. He's terrific and I think we're continuing to get to know each other as people. But we both feel very fortunate to be together.
We were at the gym today and talking about the changes that we want to make in our lives. We both want to get even more fit than we are. I want to lose some weight and gain some muscle. The Drummer wants do lose some weight, get more cardio, and get bigger. We both want to be hot for each other. But the other thing is that we want to make a commitment to continue to do things with and for each other. So we were in the middle of our workout this afternoon and we both said that we wanted to be in better shape in the next six months.
To commemorate our six months together, I said that we should give ourselves the gift of committing to our health so that when we celebrate a year together, if we're lucky to do so, we should celebrate it in a healthier way than when we started. So to that end, he's going to be doing this cleanse with me, or at least as much as he wants to. It's a significant change to have someone in my life who wants me to be better and also wants to do that with me. And it just means that we have more time to spend together and support each other.
But it also means that we have a goal for our next six months together. I like that as a present to each other: another six months of good health and fitness and time together.
So today we worked out, which was excellent. We did a quick 40 minute full body work out.
My energy is feeling good. I'm not really having any dips in energy. I start cutting out sugar next week, so we'll see how things change then.
I'm not too hungry. I'm dealing with that. And my mood and spirit is great. Feeling good.
Tonight we're going out for Sushi as a celebration of our anniversary. I'm excited to plan what kind of exercise activities we want to do together.
We were at the gym today and talking about the changes that we want to make in our lives. We both want to get even more fit than we are. I want to lose some weight and gain some muscle. The Drummer wants do lose some weight, get more cardio, and get bigger. We both want to be hot for each other. But the other thing is that we want to make a commitment to continue to do things with and for each other. So we were in the middle of our workout this afternoon and we both said that we wanted to be in better shape in the next six months.
To commemorate our six months together, I said that we should give ourselves the gift of committing to our health so that when we celebrate a year together, if we're lucky to do so, we should celebrate it in a healthier way than when we started. So to that end, he's going to be doing this cleanse with me, or at least as much as he wants to. It's a significant change to have someone in my life who wants me to be better and also wants to do that with me. And it just means that we have more time to spend together and support each other.
But it also means that we have a goal for our next six months together. I like that as a present to each other: another six months of good health and fitness and time together.
So today we worked out, which was excellent. We did a quick 40 minute full body work out.
My energy is feeling good. I'm not really having any dips in energy. I start cutting out sugar next week, so we'll see how things change then.
I'm not too hungry. I'm dealing with that. And my mood and spirit is great. Feeling good.
Tonight we're going out for Sushi as a celebration of our anniversary. I'm excited to plan what kind of exercise activities we want to do together.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Cleanse 2012: Day Two
I sat quietly in the Korean Spa, in the HOT steam room, and just meditated. I just let the mind empty out. It was a glorious feeling. I'm drinking tons of water. Just letting all of those toxins out. All of those feelings of doubt and non-useful thoughts out.
Last year, during Day Two of my Cleanse, I had the major caffeine detox. It was awful and I felt horrible. So sick. This year, I don't have the caffeine in my system. So today I felt very clean. I pooped three times. I ate very clean. And I reconnected with my very good friend, Dave, who is a former co-worker.
But the day started with a Skype call with the team that I'm working with on a project that my mentor Erik Ehn wrote that commemorates the Virginia Tech Shootings of five years ago. I am directing five play readings out of the 32 that were written that each represent a person who died that day, April 16th. We had an organizational meeting. It was good to see everyone again, to reconnect to the goings on up at Santa Clara University. All of that productive, encouraging energy came back to me. It was great.
Then I went to see my friend Susan and her new baby. That was wonderful. Just catching up on what's been going on and saying out loud the things I want to accomplish. Incredibly helpful.
Then Dave and I had lunch. Dave's amazing. Really talented at giving great feedback about scripts and story ideas. He's the person I like to bounce things off of. So we talked about everything that has been going on. And this idea that I need to reinvent myself and my work, at least as the TV industry sees me. I'm surrendering to the fact that I don't know what that is yet. But I'm open to letting those revelations come to me and then getting some writing done.
I know that I need to start over in terms of the ideas I've been working on. But that's fine. Just keep moving forward.
Then I went to the Korean Spa for three hours and just steamed, sauna-ed and sat. It was fantastic. Really, really great. I slept for a while and just let myself detox and chill.
Now I'm back at home and recounting the day's events. My energy is good. I'm not tired. My attitude is good and I'm not especially overly hungry. I haven't gotten to the crave stage yet, but maybe I won't. I'm just enjoying being clean. No exercise today. I will pick back up with an intense hump day workout tomorrow.
Last year, during Day Two of my Cleanse, I had the major caffeine detox. It was awful and I felt horrible. So sick. This year, I don't have the caffeine in my system. So today I felt very clean. I pooped three times. I ate very clean. And I reconnected with my very good friend, Dave, who is a former co-worker.
But the day started with a Skype call with the team that I'm working with on a project that my mentor Erik Ehn wrote that commemorates the Virginia Tech Shootings of five years ago. I am directing five play readings out of the 32 that were written that each represent a person who died that day, April 16th. We had an organizational meeting. It was good to see everyone again, to reconnect to the goings on up at Santa Clara University. All of that productive, encouraging energy came back to me. It was great.
Then I went to see my friend Susan and her new baby. That was wonderful. Just catching up on what's been going on and saying out loud the things I want to accomplish. Incredibly helpful.
Then Dave and I had lunch. Dave's amazing. Really talented at giving great feedback about scripts and story ideas. He's the person I like to bounce things off of. So we talked about everything that has been going on. And this idea that I need to reinvent myself and my work, at least as the TV industry sees me. I'm surrendering to the fact that I don't know what that is yet. But I'm open to letting those revelations come to me and then getting some writing done.
I know that I need to start over in terms of the ideas I've been working on. But that's fine. Just keep moving forward.
Then I went to the Korean Spa for three hours and just steamed, sauna-ed and sat. It was fantastic. Really, really great. I slept for a while and just let myself detox and chill.
Now I'm back at home and recounting the day's events. My energy is good. I'm not tired. My attitude is good and I'm not especially overly hungry. I haven't gotten to the crave stage yet, but maybe I won't. I'm just enjoying being clean. No exercise today. I will pick back up with an intense hump day workout tomorrow.
Cleanse 2012: Tarot Reading
Last year, at some point after the break up, I had Christine do my card reading. It was so helpful to have her read my cards and I decided that with the new year, I would have her do it again. So here's what she said.
I forget what the formation was called that we used, but basically we took seven cards and put them in a V formation. So starting with the top left and working down...
First Card: Past/Process of Ending - this refers to anything that happened when I walked into her house
PRINCESS OF CUPS
This refers to emotional freedom, jealousy conquered. The past can now be seen with clarity. I'm on the right path. Let go of anything not letting me completely be free.
I just came out of a year where I started coming back to myself. I'm letting go of anything that doesn't allow me to be myself and to express my true nature. I had to experience the pain of not living my true nature to truly value it. So now I can look at it with gratitude. If this is what I walked in the door with, then the five years I spent fighting for who I am and sometimes giving that up amounted to something useful.
Second Card: Present
POWER - 4 OF DISCS
This can represent both positive and negative aspects. Security and strength. It represents certain ideals that I stand for, but it can also mean that I'm fixed. I have the challenge to submit and surrender.
When we talked about this card, Christine and I both acknowledged the good and bad aspects. I have spent years beliving certain things to be true. Part of that is because I have lived my experience. But some of those beliefs came from my family or from my limitations. Such as having to really have a certain amount of experience in order to enjoy success. But I'm on a path of constant learning and I was risking never getting to a place where I felt I deserved it because I always am learning. Last year, I truly went from student to teacher and I started to engage with my authority. I have also decided to look at every belief I have and challenge it and to be open to there being a new way of thinking.
Third Card: Future Just About to Begin
STRENGTH - 9 OF WANDS
Very strong card. Wholeness. Power gained through both conscious and unconscious means. There might be a fear of unproven strength, but there is no return to weakness or ignorance. I need to trust my inner guide more. I'm in a process of discovering and I should pay attention to what my dreams are saying.
I can feel myself becoming more whole. I spent more time in quiet thought and just listening to the messages around me, rather than covering up the knowledge that the Universe is offering up. Because I am starting to trust my inner guide more, I discover more connections and I am being guided in certain directions, towards certain people and situations that support me. I also have been having crazy dreams lately and I suppose now I need to pay more attention to them. I do have a fear of what I haven't proven yet, probably a fear that the strength either isn't as strong or isn't there in ways I need it to be. I just need to shut up and trust it. This is how I heard what the cards were saying.
Fourth Card: What to Do
VICTORY - 6 OF WANDS
Victory. Success. Breakthrough. All goals should be easily reached. Struggle won by fair means. Do what you were planning to do. Question: What does Victory mean to you?
The Fourth Card, which refers to What To Do, basically said Do What You Were Planning to Do. There is no clearer message than that. But the question of what does Victory or Success mean to me has great meaning and resonance. And it means something entirely different to me than it did a year ago. And I like that this card is saying that my goals should be easily reached. As easy as reaching for them...right?
Fifth Card: Helpful/Disturbing Energies from the Outside
DEFEAT - 5 of SWORDS
There's a fear of loss/defeat. Painful experiences. Fear of losing control. Challenge: make room for objectification/clarity.
I interpreted this card to mean that with all of this energy in a positive direction, what is holding me back is made clearer. I have had painful experiences which made me feel that I won't accomplish what I want to accomplish. And the next card proves that way of thinking is done.
Sixth Card: Greatest Hopes/Fears
THE UNIVERSE
This is the last card in the major arcana. Travel. Liberation from Bondage. New beginnings or a higher level of being. Now See the world as it is. I am at one with my original nature. The serpent has outlived its usefulness. New beginning.
I interpreted this very strong card as certification that I'm on the right path. That I don't need to beat myself down to lift myself up: The serpent has outlived its usefulness. This refers to both my father and my ex and other influences in my life which have made me feel like I need to be hard on myself to flourish. I needed the serpent or felt that I needed him before. I don't need the serpent any more.
Seventh Card: Result/Outcome
PRINCE OF SWORDS
Intuition. Creative Thinking. Free of limited thinking. Perception. Time to give shape and form to ideas. Free yourself from limits. Express your ideas in ways people can understand, even if those ideas are ahead of their time. Do some Creative Visualisation. Creativity has no limits.
Well, that kind of says it all. In summation, go for it. Just Do It. Make it happen. There are no limits. All in all, a great reading. And just the encouragement I needed to start this new year and this new beginning.
I forget what the formation was called that we used, but basically we took seven cards and put them in a V formation. So starting with the top left and working down...
First Card: Past/Process of Ending - this refers to anything that happened when I walked into her house
PRINCESS OF CUPS
This refers to emotional freedom, jealousy conquered. The past can now be seen with clarity. I'm on the right path. Let go of anything not letting me completely be free.
I just came out of a year where I started coming back to myself. I'm letting go of anything that doesn't allow me to be myself and to express my true nature. I had to experience the pain of not living my true nature to truly value it. So now I can look at it with gratitude. If this is what I walked in the door with, then the five years I spent fighting for who I am and sometimes giving that up amounted to something useful.
Second Card: Present
POWER - 4 OF DISCS
This can represent both positive and negative aspects. Security and strength. It represents certain ideals that I stand for, but it can also mean that I'm fixed. I have the challenge to submit and surrender.
When we talked about this card, Christine and I both acknowledged the good and bad aspects. I have spent years beliving certain things to be true. Part of that is because I have lived my experience. But some of those beliefs came from my family or from my limitations. Such as having to really have a certain amount of experience in order to enjoy success. But I'm on a path of constant learning and I was risking never getting to a place where I felt I deserved it because I always am learning. Last year, I truly went from student to teacher and I started to engage with my authority. I have also decided to look at every belief I have and challenge it and to be open to there being a new way of thinking.
Third Card: Future Just About to Begin
STRENGTH - 9 OF WANDS
Very strong card. Wholeness. Power gained through both conscious and unconscious means. There might be a fear of unproven strength, but there is no return to weakness or ignorance. I need to trust my inner guide more. I'm in a process of discovering and I should pay attention to what my dreams are saying.
I can feel myself becoming more whole. I spent more time in quiet thought and just listening to the messages around me, rather than covering up the knowledge that the Universe is offering up. Because I am starting to trust my inner guide more, I discover more connections and I am being guided in certain directions, towards certain people and situations that support me. I also have been having crazy dreams lately and I suppose now I need to pay more attention to them. I do have a fear of what I haven't proven yet, probably a fear that the strength either isn't as strong or isn't there in ways I need it to be. I just need to shut up and trust it. This is how I heard what the cards were saying.
Fourth Card: What to Do
VICTORY - 6 OF WANDS
Victory. Success. Breakthrough. All goals should be easily reached. Struggle won by fair means. Do what you were planning to do. Question: What does Victory mean to you?
The Fourth Card, which refers to What To Do, basically said Do What You Were Planning to Do. There is no clearer message than that. But the question of what does Victory or Success mean to me has great meaning and resonance. And it means something entirely different to me than it did a year ago. And I like that this card is saying that my goals should be easily reached. As easy as reaching for them...right?
Fifth Card: Helpful/Disturbing Energies from the Outside
DEFEAT - 5 of SWORDS
There's a fear of loss/defeat. Painful experiences. Fear of losing control. Challenge: make room for objectification/clarity.
I interpreted this card to mean that with all of this energy in a positive direction, what is holding me back is made clearer. I have had painful experiences which made me feel that I won't accomplish what I want to accomplish. And the next card proves that way of thinking is done.
Sixth Card: Greatest Hopes/Fears
THE UNIVERSE
This is the last card in the major arcana. Travel. Liberation from Bondage. New beginnings or a higher level of being. Now See the world as it is. I am at one with my original nature. The serpent has outlived its usefulness. New beginning.
I interpreted this very strong card as certification that I'm on the right path. That I don't need to beat myself down to lift myself up: The serpent has outlived its usefulness. This refers to both my father and my ex and other influences in my life which have made me feel like I need to be hard on myself to flourish. I needed the serpent or felt that I needed him before. I don't need the serpent any more.
Seventh Card: Result/Outcome
PRINCE OF SWORDS
Intuition. Creative Thinking. Free of limited thinking. Perception. Time to give shape and form to ideas. Free yourself from limits. Express your ideas in ways people can understand, even if those ideas are ahead of their time. Do some Creative Visualisation. Creativity has no limits.
Well, that kind of says it all. In summation, go for it. Just Do It. Make it happen. There are no limits. All in all, a great reading. And just the encouragement I needed to start this new year and this new beginning.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Cleanse 2012: Day One
Today's the first day of my cleanse.
I woke up late. Or normal time according to the boyfriend. 11 AM. The boyfriend's a musician and we stay up late. I need to change that. At least for me.
I took my psyllium husk powder and then I went to the gym. Hour workout. Started on the rowing machine, which is my favorite new thing. Then legs. Then chest and back. Then shoulders and arms.
Came back and made two burritos with Esekiel tortillas, black beans, mango salsa, pico de gallo and lettuce.
Then did some work on this blog.
Tonight I"m going to my friend Christine's to have my tarot cards read. Haven't done that in almost a year. Really looking forward to that. My big question will most likely be about my work. Those are always the things I wonder about. But this time it won't be about getting that "dream job." But it will be about work and life balance and my priorities with my work. Keeping focused on what I love to do. Money wouldn't be bad either. Need to make some of that for when the unemployment runs out.
Dinner will probably be the corn pasta with ground chicken and spices and veggies. And a salad. Drinking my detox tea now. Going over to Christine's with some chips, mango salsa and hummus.
I'm looking forward to this. The last cleanse brought about so much good change that I'm ready to make this more about a lifestyle and seeing what things I can cut out of my diet.
What don't I need anymore? What has served its purpose?
Is that sugar? Is that red meat? Is that cigarettes?
Is it people who put me down? Judgement? Self loathing?
That's the big question on this cleanse: What don't I need anymore?
I woke up late. Or normal time according to the boyfriend. 11 AM. The boyfriend's a musician and we stay up late. I need to change that. At least for me.
I took my psyllium husk powder and then I went to the gym. Hour workout. Started on the rowing machine, which is my favorite new thing. Then legs. Then chest and back. Then shoulders and arms.
Came back and made two burritos with Esekiel tortillas, black beans, mango salsa, pico de gallo and lettuce.
Then did some work on this blog.
Tonight I"m going to my friend Christine's to have my tarot cards read. Haven't done that in almost a year. Really looking forward to that. My big question will most likely be about my work. Those are always the things I wonder about. But this time it won't be about getting that "dream job." But it will be about work and life balance and my priorities with my work. Keeping focused on what I love to do. Money wouldn't be bad either. Need to make some of that for when the unemployment runs out.
Dinner will probably be the corn pasta with ground chicken and spices and veggies. And a salad. Drinking my detox tea now. Going over to Christine's with some chips, mango salsa and hummus.
I'm looking forward to this. The last cleanse brought about so much good change that I'm ready to make this more about a lifestyle and seeing what things I can cut out of my diet.
What don't I need anymore? What has served its purpose?
Is that sugar? Is that red meat? Is that cigarettes?
Is it people who put me down? Judgement? Self loathing?
That's the big question on this cleanse: What don't I need anymore?
Cleanse 2012: Goals
When I did this cleanse last year, I had set up a list of goals and reasons I'm doing the cleanse. So I thought that it would be good to write all of that stuff down again because this year's reasons are different from last year's.
After I finished my cleanse last year, I decided to end my dependence on caffeine. I had a coke once and a green tea a few times. But no coffee. No soda. After that I decided that I would repeat the cleanse once a year and every time I would finish minus my dependence on something else. So here are the options this year:
FAST FOOD
CIGARETTES
SUGAR
RED MEAT
It would be one or more of those things. Last year I decided to not plan anything important during my cleanse. I did it after my birthday. I didn't have any major trips planned. This year I have my anniversary with The Drummer on Wednesday. I'm going to Santa Clara to work on a project for four days. So I'm going to have to really be good about it this time around. And life can't stop because I'm on a cleanse, also I can't just give up on my cleanse if I'm travelling or on vacation. So I'm adding some different challenges this year.
Okay...so here's why I'm repeating my cleanse again this year:
Last year I felt so good and energized in the months after the cleanse. But of course I reintroduced different foods into my life and I noticed that my energy became a little more up and down, but not as bad as when I was on caffeine. So this year, I'm looking at my relationship to sugar. I don't know if I would completely give sugar up, but I do know that I can't be as thoughtless about it.
I have a lot of goals to accomplish in 2012. Last year was about rebuilding after the break up. I had to get my life together again. And a lot of last year was about letting go. The cleanse fit into that because I was focused on the idea of empty calories. If I'm concerned about the things I'm putting into my body and being thought out and planned out about that, it becomes a great metaphor for the people and experiences that I allow myself to have in my life. I can't be thoughtless about that any more. So I want to refocus on that a bit. I think I did great this year with being aware of what was going into my body, but I loosened my rules because I also try to enjoy food.
One of the lasting effects of last year's cleanse was the immunity. I haven't gotten sick in a year. So this is a good time to re up that immunity. It's like renewing my AAA membership. I'm renewing my coverage for 2012.
I want to recommit myself to discipline. If I'm going to be planned out and thought out about my diet, then I need to do the same about excercise and I need to do the same with my writing. I need to have a plan. I need to be on a schedule. I need to make time to prepare. Because when you're not prepared on the cleanse, then you start eating shit you shouldn't because you are in a hurry and you choose conveinence over health. I think that's true for when you're not prepared in your life. So this year I want those three aspects to really integrate and work together.
The wonderful thing is that I have a partner who's committed to the same things. I have to do all of these things for myself, but my boyfriend wants the same things for himself so I'm not in an environment where my needs and wants are in conflict with his, even though mine are different. And I don't want to make myself responsible for him dealing with his shit. That is his own separate journey.
So I want to use this cleanse as a template for how prepared I need to be in the rest of my life in two significant areas of my life: exercise and work. Two areas, by the way, that I always flip flop between. I have been notorious for saying I can't do both at the same time. I've been better about it in recent years, but historically when I was working out, I wasn't writing and vice versa.
So with the exercise, here are my goals:
I want to work out every other day at the gym. I just got this app that the Drummer turned me onto called Virtual Gym. It gives you an 80 minute full body workout. I do that every other day. In addition, I am going to run in the days between. I want to get the boyfriend running as well. But that's a separate thing.
Then I'm going to detox my skin and go to the Korean Spa at least twice a week. The last time I did this cleanse, everyone remarked about how great my skin looked. So I'm ready to make that happen again. The funny thing about my face in the past twelve months is that I look younger than I have in years...and I already look young.
With the writing, I'm going to have a schedule as well. My friend Kevin said something inspiring last week when I emailed him to make plans to see each other. He said that he wasn't doing anything in January and that I had to wait until February because he was writing. Okay, I thought. I need to adopt that attitude. And I will. I'm having a challenging time because the boyfriend is on a musician's schedule. But I have my laptop and I can take off and write in the mornings if I need to. But if I'm writing every day for a set amount of time, I will easily get the scripts written that I need to get written.
And I will gauge my progress day to day on the same scale I had last time.
Energy
Attitude
Excercise
and one more thing I have to look up.
After I finished my cleanse last year, I decided to end my dependence on caffeine. I had a coke once and a green tea a few times. But no coffee. No soda. After that I decided that I would repeat the cleanse once a year and every time I would finish minus my dependence on something else. So here are the options this year:
FAST FOOD
CIGARETTES
SUGAR
RED MEAT
It would be one or more of those things. Last year I decided to not plan anything important during my cleanse. I did it after my birthday. I didn't have any major trips planned. This year I have my anniversary with The Drummer on Wednesday. I'm going to Santa Clara to work on a project for four days. So I'm going to have to really be good about it this time around. And life can't stop because I'm on a cleanse, also I can't just give up on my cleanse if I'm travelling or on vacation. So I'm adding some different challenges this year.
Okay...so here's why I'm repeating my cleanse again this year:
Last year I felt so good and energized in the months after the cleanse. But of course I reintroduced different foods into my life and I noticed that my energy became a little more up and down, but not as bad as when I was on caffeine. So this year, I'm looking at my relationship to sugar. I don't know if I would completely give sugar up, but I do know that I can't be as thoughtless about it.
I have a lot of goals to accomplish in 2012. Last year was about rebuilding after the break up. I had to get my life together again. And a lot of last year was about letting go. The cleanse fit into that because I was focused on the idea of empty calories. If I'm concerned about the things I'm putting into my body and being thought out and planned out about that, it becomes a great metaphor for the people and experiences that I allow myself to have in my life. I can't be thoughtless about that any more. So I want to refocus on that a bit. I think I did great this year with being aware of what was going into my body, but I loosened my rules because I also try to enjoy food.
One of the lasting effects of last year's cleanse was the immunity. I haven't gotten sick in a year. So this is a good time to re up that immunity. It's like renewing my AAA membership. I'm renewing my coverage for 2012.
I want to recommit myself to discipline. If I'm going to be planned out and thought out about my diet, then I need to do the same about excercise and I need to do the same with my writing. I need to have a plan. I need to be on a schedule. I need to make time to prepare. Because when you're not prepared on the cleanse, then you start eating shit you shouldn't because you are in a hurry and you choose conveinence over health. I think that's true for when you're not prepared in your life. So this year I want those three aspects to really integrate and work together.
The wonderful thing is that I have a partner who's committed to the same things. I have to do all of these things for myself, but my boyfriend wants the same things for himself so I'm not in an environment where my needs and wants are in conflict with his, even though mine are different. And I don't want to make myself responsible for him dealing with his shit. That is his own separate journey.
So I want to use this cleanse as a template for how prepared I need to be in the rest of my life in two significant areas of my life: exercise and work. Two areas, by the way, that I always flip flop between. I have been notorious for saying I can't do both at the same time. I've been better about it in recent years, but historically when I was working out, I wasn't writing and vice versa.
So with the exercise, here are my goals:
I want to work out every other day at the gym. I just got this app that the Drummer turned me onto called Virtual Gym. It gives you an 80 minute full body workout. I do that every other day. In addition, I am going to run in the days between. I want to get the boyfriend running as well. But that's a separate thing.
Then I'm going to detox my skin and go to the Korean Spa at least twice a week. The last time I did this cleanse, everyone remarked about how great my skin looked. So I'm ready to make that happen again. The funny thing about my face in the past twelve months is that I look younger than I have in years...and I already look young.
With the writing, I'm going to have a schedule as well. My friend Kevin said something inspiring last week when I emailed him to make plans to see each other. He said that he wasn't doing anything in January and that I had to wait until February because he was writing. Okay, I thought. I need to adopt that attitude. And I will. I'm having a challenging time because the boyfriend is on a musician's schedule. But I have my laptop and I can take off and write in the mornings if I need to. But if I'm writing every day for a set amount of time, I will easily get the scripts written that I need to get written.
And I will gauge my progress day to day on the same scale I had last time.
Energy
Attitude
Excercise
and one more thing I have to look up.
2012 and I'm Back Again
It's a new year.
Teaching consumed most of my time in the past couple of months so I haven't been on here as much. The holidays...a new relationship...there are a million excuses I guess. But the big one is that I've been working and living.
November was all about wrapping up at school. The teaching went well. I think I made an impact on my students lives and I had a great time doing that. I got reacquainted with some of my old professors who were now my colleagues. But the workouts went to the waste side, while the waist expanded a bit. With all of the travelling back and forth and trying to keep up with my Dad's health, it was all a little crazy.
Then in December I went to visit my brother and his family for two weeks and that was really about a complete check out from the rest of my life. The Drummer and I are still together...celebrating six months together in about two days. And that has been amazing. The last update was about how we finally said I love you to each other. And the past two months have been all about love. And kindness and respect. We're still getting to know each other more each day and I think the more we find out about each other, the deeper our love gets. It really is fantastic.
But I had to get away from all of it. My Dad's illness. My boyfriend. The past two and a half months of teaching. I had to totally let it go. So I went to Portland and got back on my workout routine. I ate a lot. Gained some weight. I'm actually at the heaviest I've ever been. The difference is that even though I'm about 180, I'm also in the best shape I've ever been in, in terms of muscle. So since muscle weights more than fat I don't look as big and my waist line isn't as big as when I was 178 five years ago. I was huge then. Well, huge in relative terms I guess. So now I'm in great shape, but I've got a gut because I like to eat.
So because it's the new year and because it's time and because I want to start things fresh...I'm doing my cleanse again. I just started today. And I will chronicle the cleanse the same way I chronicled it last time. I don't even remember what I said last time about it, but I will be documenting my progress every single day.
I have said several times that I was ending this blog because I felt like a certain journey had ended. I met someone wonderful. A year had past since the break up...there were a bunch of reasons to stop. But I think that there are still milestones I want to hit. I haven't gotten that first job as a staff writer on a TV show yet. My first big play hasn't been produced. I haven't gotten married...not that anything is in the works. I don't have those wonderful after photographs yet with the six pack abs. There are a lot of things still left to do. And still excellent ways to improve my life. As time goes on and as things get better, there's more and more to do.
So once again...I'M BACK. Hopefully for a while. But like working out, sometimes I need to take a break and come back to things with renewed energy.
Teaching consumed most of my time in the past couple of months so I haven't been on here as much. The holidays...a new relationship...there are a million excuses I guess. But the big one is that I've been working and living.
November was all about wrapping up at school. The teaching went well. I think I made an impact on my students lives and I had a great time doing that. I got reacquainted with some of my old professors who were now my colleagues. But the workouts went to the waste side, while the waist expanded a bit. With all of the travelling back and forth and trying to keep up with my Dad's health, it was all a little crazy.
Then in December I went to visit my brother and his family for two weeks and that was really about a complete check out from the rest of my life. The Drummer and I are still together...celebrating six months together in about two days. And that has been amazing. The last update was about how we finally said I love you to each other. And the past two months have been all about love. And kindness and respect. We're still getting to know each other more each day and I think the more we find out about each other, the deeper our love gets. It really is fantastic.
But I had to get away from all of it. My Dad's illness. My boyfriend. The past two and a half months of teaching. I had to totally let it go. So I went to Portland and got back on my workout routine. I ate a lot. Gained some weight. I'm actually at the heaviest I've ever been. The difference is that even though I'm about 180, I'm also in the best shape I've ever been in, in terms of muscle. So since muscle weights more than fat I don't look as big and my waist line isn't as big as when I was 178 five years ago. I was huge then. Well, huge in relative terms I guess. So now I'm in great shape, but I've got a gut because I like to eat.
So because it's the new year and because it's time and because I want to start things fresh...I'm doing my cleanse again. I just started today. And I will chronicle the cleanse the same way I chronicled it last time. I don't even remember what I said last time about it, but I will be documenting my progress every single day.
I have said several times that I was ending this blog because I felt like a certain journey had ended. I met someone wonderful. A year had past since the break up...there were a bunch of reasons to stop. But I think that there are still milestones I want to hit. I haven't gotten that first job as a staff writer on a TV show yet. My first big play hasn't been produced. I haven't gotten married...not that anything is in the works. I don't have those wonderful after photographs yet with the six pack abs. There are a lot of things still left to do. And still excellent ways to improve my life. As time goes on and as things get better, there's more and more to do.
So once again...I'M BACK. Hopefully for a while. But like working out, sometimes I need to take a break and come back to things with renewed energy.
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