I got a text from Susan today asking me if anything about the reading seemed to ring true this week. I got to thinking about that and figured, I'd put my responses down in a blog post.
What I like to do after a reading is keep going back every few weeks to see if what came out in the cards is coming to pass. So this is my first check in with myself.
Where I am Right Now (King of Swords)
The King of Swords points to a very forceful energy. You may need to change something about your behavior, thoughts and/or expectations. If you're looking for work, a stereotypical man's man may be able to help. But you have to impress him on every level. In relationship to love, you have to accept your beloved as who he is. In terms of finances, face the reality of your situation head on. There is a need for generosity towards others.
Cut away from an old belief that has outlived its purpose. Listen to your intuition. A boss or co-worker won't mince words.
I am in the process of trying to change things up. I'm looking for day jobs. I'm looking for jobs that feel like I could have a purpose and yet won't distract me too much from writing. I keep thinking about this old belief that has outlived its purpose and there have been a lot of old ideas that are no longer useful. But this idea that if I commit to a day job then I am giving up, I am giving up on that way of thinking. Worrying about money is taking up too much of my time and given the productivity I've had especially in the last year and a half, I can make money not writing and still have time to write. I just have to focus on that and make it a priority. It doesn't mean that I'm giving up or selling out.
Setting the Stage (Tower)
The Tower is a card about Change. It seems that some people who used to be there for you aren't in the same way. Change is a part of life, this isn't dire. If you've been building castles in the air, it may be time for them to come crashing to earth. This is only a problem if you let it be. You'll make it through time time. Realize you've got all the resources you need. Control your temper. Sudden reversals can happen now. This can be an indicator that a relationship is about to end. Keep communication clear if you are in a relationship you want to stay in. Find out exactly what you are dealing with financially. Deal with any problems in a straight forward manner. Careful with drugs and alcohol. Keep a positive attitude.
Breaking a part a structure that keeps you bound. There's an inner urge to break free. Violent upheaval. Sweeping life clean. Now doors open. New chapters begin. A fresh start.
Setting the stage for Change. Yes, there are people in my life who don't serve a purpose as much as those ideas that don't serve a purpose. And maybe they're related. I found myself last year getting rid of some people who I thought were close to me and who really defined me. It's not the friendships that are easy to let go of that make an impact, it's the ones you never thought you would let go of. But when I think about it, these people either proved themselves to be something other than what I thought or those friendships had just run their course. I believe that writing is my vocation in life. But that doesn't mean that I will go to Hollywood and get paid millions to do it. That doesn't mean that it was all worth it. The fact that I spend every day writing means that I'm meant to do it. The fact that I have ideas that keep coming and that I have opportunities to keep writing are affirmation that I'm a writer all day every day no matter what. Those big pay days don't define me. Another old idea I'm letting go of is that if I'm not famous and rich as a writer then I am a failure. I am a success every day I wake up to write. And in the days I don't hit the keys, I'm still reading, watching and thinking about writing. My life is facing in that direction. I have been setting the stage for the past four years for a big change to happen. I have been clearing the way for a new way of living.
What I'm Learning This Month (10 of Wands)
You feel like you are carrying a heavy burden. How can you lighten your load? Don't do too much. Give yourself a break, you have been working too hard. If you've been looking for a new position, don't lose heart. You won't fail. Something in your relationship needs to be examined. Take the time. Make a financial plan. Massage and vacation can work wonders now. Reach out for help in all areas.
You're a workaholic on a mission. You have so much responsibility. Take time to head out into the world and dispense new knowledge. Do things for yourself.
It's amazing that the thing I keep learning is to lighten my load and not to do too much. It seems like I have been doing too much for too long that I need to give myself a break. That thought is so antithetical to the way I was raised and what I believe. But again, there's another idea that has outlived its purpose. So this month is about looking for that new position and knowing that I won't fail. A lot of what this reading was about was that my relationship needs to be looked at. And I've known that for a long time. That doesn't mean THE END. That means that as I am looking at myself, I need to be looking at the relationship and giving to it everything I can, if that's what I want. I'm being more open and vulnerable with The Drummer and that's bringing us deeper and closer. I need to make a financial plan, that's good advice. If I have a plan for what I need, then the opportunities that come my way can help fill that need. I'm also trying to take care of myself as much as I can. I like this month's lesson.
The Root/Unconscious/What I'm Standing On (7 of Wands)
In any competitive situation, you come out on top. Now is the time to feel your fear and do it anyway. Make clear where you stand with people. You'll help the situation by making your self clear. A big positive change is coming. This card is about thinking for yourself and independence. Now's the time to be self-employed. Expect an increase in finances. Be sensible with money. Think long term.
You possess the ability to succeed against opposition. The Writer's Card. Tie up loose ends of past. Rely on your own strength and judgment. Time to take the plunge towards self-employment.
My unconscious thoughts say that I'm a good competitor. That is true. I am very competitive because I like to stretch myself. We have this writing challenge through my playwrights group and I'm using the opportunity to get as much done as possible. Last year, I wrote an entire play in a month. It's not about being "better" than anyone else. It's just about using that pressure to get more done. I'm usually good when I don't pay attention to what other people are doing and I just feel like I'm trying to outrun a train. When I look back, I usually get further than I thought I would. I know a positive change is happening, and I'm just trying to remember that change is coming and there's a light at the end of the tunnel. It's hard to do that when you're surviving on the bare minimum (and sometimes below the bare minimum) of life. The one thing that comes up sometimes is self-employment and I'm constantly confused by that. I'm not sure if that means that I need to be in business for myself, if I need to set up my website, if I need to find more freelance work. Because right now the idea of a 401K and great health benefits and a long term plan sound so attractive. Is that the wrong thing? I would love to know ASAP so I can start heading in the right direction if I'm not already there.
The Last Two Weeks (Death)
Transformation and Change. Certain people or situations are not available to you as they once were. Let go of a self-limiting belief or attitude. Accept the change about to happen to make this transition easier. This change and destruction will be followed by renewal. You may benefit from a complete change of field. Do it. Face any problems in your relationship and try to fix it. If you can't, you might have to move on. Reach out for help. Deal with financial changes. Stay healthy. Don't abuse drugs or alcohol. Move through this "dark night of the soul."
Transition. Transformation. Permanent change is required. Are you afraid of the future? Seek out a new occupation or career.
BIG CHANGE. I'm ready. This was the part where Susan was staring to get nervous in the reading. But I reminded her that the big changes in my life that have brought about the most positivity have been because of huge disruptions to the way I used to live. Nothing in my life is anything of what it was like four years ago. I was in a shitty relationship at home and at work and in my family. I was maxing out on my daddy issues. I didn't want to get up in the morning. I didn't like myself. I felt like a huge failure and that life had passed me by. But that all changed. And now I have less money than I have had in a long time and I feel happier and more fulfilled than ever. So what does that tell me? That change is good. That I need to focus on the right things. But what does that have to do with the last two weeks? Maybe I'm preparing for big change more than I realize. I think the two weeks before this reading I was confronting my past a lot. SO maybe it's just time to finally say good bye to it. SO much of my past is coming up in my dreams. I have been dreaming about my past more than ever lately. But perhaps that's a sign. It's time to close the chapter on a part of my life I now look back at with such nostalgia. It wasn't as good as I'm making it out to be.
How Others See you in the World (Wheel of Fortune)
This is a very spiritual and Karmically oriented time. Change. You are being called on to follow your dream. Reach out to someone who does what you dream of doing. Talk about how you're feeling in your relationship to get what you want. Financial circumstances are about to change. Save for a rainy day when fortunes change. Hold yourself accountable for what is happening in your life.
Change. Take a gamble. Fates are trying to steer you in a new direction. New work cycle.
Do others see me as a gambler? Do they see me as someone who follows his dream and does what he wants? Do others see me as a risk taker? I know that others see me as someone who writes a lot. I know that others see me as someone who is independent and special. I claim that. So the fates are trying to steer me in this new direction. As my friend Carrie said yesterday, I need to stop fighting the current. The riptide of life has me and I need to just swim with it until it's ready to drop me off in the place I should be. I am being called on to follow my dream. Maybe that security job isn't coming. So don't fight it. Swim parallel to the dream and let the dream get me where I need to be.
Next Two Weeks (5 of Wands)
Competition. Don't be afraid of competing. You have something to offer. You need to believe in yourself stronger than ever now. You may be thinking of making a career change and can be successful. In competition, the only way to lose is not to try. Don't be afraid of the competition. You can come out on top. Play fair. You or your partner may be pursued by many people. Even though money's tight, think about your financial situation calmly. You might not be able to make all of your obligations right now, but you will. Do what you can. Things will be better financially in the next couple of weeks. Give yourself time to rest and reset.
Others want what you want. Don't give in. Competition is stiff and frustrating. Efforts won't go unrewarded. Countering rivals. Ignore the gossip. Significant challenges.
The next two weeks (which I'm in now) are about competition. That's true. I have my play to finish for the writing challenge and my first developmental reading through Moving Arts. I also have the Humanitas application due on March 1st. I have another play to submit on the 16th. I have the Humanitas Play LA application due on April 15th. I have my second reading on April 14th. This is probably the most positive message in the cards out of all of them and it's about the next two weeks. If I compete, I will win. I have something to offer. I have to keep going and believe in myself. That's why my belief in myself is being tested. The only way to lose is not to try. No chance of that. I'm trying new things and I'm succeeding in getting better. Things are about to get better financially. My efforts won't go unrewarded. I just need to ignore the noise around me and work.
Self-Concept (3 of Swords)
Allow yourself to fully experience any sorrow or joy that comes now. Very deep emotional issues that must be addressed before you can move on. Your whole life is not or should not be what you do professionally. Look in a different field. Ask for help. If there is difficulty in your relationship, know that you are being guided to the relationship that is right for you. If your financially is overwhelming, look at it at a chunk at a time. Ask for assistance. Don't hold onto things that have outlived their purpose. Make room for new blessings to come in.
Heartbreak. Loss. Disappointment. Intense feelings take their control. Letting go of what no longer serves you. Change must be made. Inspiration leads you far afield of where you started.
This card is about how I see myself. See this card is talking about how I see myself and that it doesn't have to be about what I do professionally. I can look at things differently now and be okay. I need to make room for new ideas to come in. I have to let go of what no longer serves me, that is an important part of how I see myself. Because if the way I see myself is limited, I will not live the fullest expression of myself that is possible. Inspiration leads me far afield of where I started--I like that. I don't know quite what that means yet, but I like the idea.
Hope or Fear (Judgment)
Don't jump to conclusions. Slow down. This can be a time of real spiritual awakening. Your efforts are being watched. If you have been working hard and doing your best, things are about to pay off. Make very clear what you want out of life and love. Money and contracts will be heading your way now. Things should be on a very important, positive upswing. Be open to new ideas and new experiences.
Major reality. Release the past. Awakening from your journey. Learn to mold awakedness with kindness. The journey moves in a spiral that goes up. Waking up to realize real work and path.
This is about my hopes and fears. Don't jump to conclusions. Okay. Slow down. My body is tired and showing my signs that I need to relax and slow down. I have been working hard and things are about tot pay off. I want a true partnership in both my personal and professional lives. Even if that means that the person I was thinking might be a new manager isn't that person, I know that she will be a part of my growth. And this could be a longer dance. That's fine too. More opportunities to show myself. Again, this is about releasing the past. I fear that the best is behind me. That is a thought that has outlived its purpose. The best is yet to come. I have made it through this journey and I can now reap the benefits of everything I have lived and experienced.
Home/Energy You Draw to Yourself (Son of Disks/Knight of Pentacles)
The Knight of Pentacles points to messages, most often about money and finance. You are likely to receive news you have been waiting on and this news is likely to be good. The Knight tells us to pay attention to the mundane and normal parts of our lives. It's a very practical card. You must work within existing systems and accomplish what people want you to accomplish. This is positive in terms of work, but you need to come across as even keeled in interviews, not as a maverick. Money is coming soon and could be coming in from anywhere. Keep your nose to the grindstone and don't bet more than you can afford to lose. Make small positive mundane changes in terms of health.
Set financial goals and stick to them. Headed for professional success and distraction. Steady income. Willingly accepting obligation and taking responsibility for actions.
The energy I try to draw to myself is of success and openness. It's of full expression. I remember that Steven Pressfield in his books talks about the work not happening in the big moments but in those every day mundane moments. It's about a practice that you keep at every day. The muses will come where they see the most work being produced. I have to work in existing systems to get done what I want to. This is not maverick time. But I am able to get done what I need to get done. That will happen. I can still have a maverick spirit, but I need to keep my nose to the grindstone and get my shit done. The energy I am drawing to me is one of hard work, studiousness and perseverance.
Next Steps (World)
How good are you at asking for help when you need it? You might feel the weight of the world on your shoulders, but don't feel like you have to go at it alone. You've worked hard and you're almost at the finish line in some way. Don't quit now that you're almost finished. You are in need of rest and relaxation, don't be afraid to take it. You are getting closer to who you really are at your deepest levels. In terms of work, there's a chance that you're working too hard for too little recognition and money. If this is the case blow your own horn a little, don't be afraid and don't be overlooked. You might be finding your relationship rising to greater heights. Your financial blockage is about to break and you'll be flush again soon. Don't go mad with spending when it does happen. Make sure to save. Follow your instincts about what is best for your health. Might be time to find a healer. You are likely to have clear flashes of spiritual insights at this time.
The fool's journey ends. Reached a deep understanding. Most private beliefs affect the world. Completion. Success. Fulfillment. Don't assume ultimate goal has been attained. Travel. Foreign contacts. Overcome limitations.
My next steps are to keep going even thought it's getting difficult. I'm almost at the finish line and that's where it always gets the hardest. It's the story of Odysseus. Don't open the bag of wind that will set me back. This is the antithetical thought though: as it gets closer, just lay back and relax. I am working too hard for too little money. I need to blow my horn more. I think that makes sense. The squeaky wheel gets the grease and I could use a little more squeak in my step. I just need to keep doing what I'm doing and not worrying about the reward or the outcome. That will figure itself out. Don't think about it too much. Just do what you're doing.
I am grateful for insight.
I am grateful for tarot cards.
I am grateful for truth.
I am grateful for energy.
I am grateful for food.
I am grateful for my stubbornness.
I am grateful for all there is to come.
Saturday, February 21, 2015
Thursday, February 12, 2015
Tarot Cards: Birthday Reading
It has been about six months since my last Tarot Card Reading.
(Gosh, I just had flashbacks to my old days as a Catholic at confession)
I've learned a lot since then. About myself. And about the way I move through the world. Today is my birthday, so my friend Susan decided to do a reading for me to commemorate the occasion. I started a meditation practice. I feel like I have slowed down and distilled my life to the bare essence. Something in the air feels like it's time to build again. I have leveled my life. I have spent the past four years leveling my life and now it's time to build on this land again.
But what will I build? The reading had some indication.
Here's what my last reading was all about:
http://iambacktolife.blogspot.com/2014/08/tarot-card-reading-ask-for-help.html
The last reading was very open ended. I was in the middle of a cycle and I wouldn't be ending it any time soon. Usually, the cards indicate some sort of cycle you're in. The cycle I was in would be continuing on for awhile. There was a feeling of transition and not of resolution. The gist was that things were happening for me. I was meeting people who could help out with my career, but it didn't feel like much was happening other than good will.
This reading felt much more definite. It felt like it is time for things to happen. The theme of the reading is BIG CHANGES. Susan felt bad about the reading because it didn't feel like good things were on the horizon. I remember the other times of big change in my life: my break up, my father's death, leaving a long time job. And those big changes brought about a whole new perspective in my life. I like big change because it means that what I have been working on steadily for a period of time was finally coming to fruition. I was finally giving birth to the next stage in my life. And nothing is born without labor and trauma. We don't come into this world delicately. We are forced out through a human being or we are cut out of her. It's violent. Plants break through the earth. Nothing is born without disruption.
So I go into this next phase with much excitement. Things are about to happen.
Where I am Right Now (King of Swords)
The King of Swords points to a very forceful energy. You may need to change something about your behavior, thoughts and/or expectations. If you're looking for work, a stereotypical man's man may be able to help. But you have to impress him on every level. In relationship to love, you have to accept your beloved as who he is. In terms of finances, face the reality of your situation head on. There is a need for generosity towards others.
Cut away from an old belief that has outlived its purpose. Listen to your intuition. A boss or co-worker won't mince words.
Setting the Stage (Tower)
The Tower is a card about Change. It seems that some people who used to be there for you aren't in the same way. Change is a part of life, this isn't dire. If you've been building castles in the air, it may be time for them to come crashing to earth. This is only a problem if you let it be. You'll make it through time time. Realize you've got all the resources you need. Control your temper. Sudden reversals can happen now. This can be an indicator that a relationship is about to end. Keep communication clear if you are in a relationship you want to stay in. Find out exactly what you are dealing with financially. Deal with any problems in a straight forward manner. Careful with drugs and alcohol. Keep a positive attitude.
Breaking a part a structure that keeps you bound. There's an inner urge to break free. Violent upheaval. Sweeping life clean. Now doors open. New chapters begin. A fresh start.
What I'm Learning This Month (10 of Wands)
You feel like you are carrying a heavy burden. How can you lighten your load? Don't do too much. Give yourself a break, you have been working too hard. If you've been looking for a new position, don't lose heart. You won't fail. Something in your relationship needs to be examined. Take the time. Make a financial plan. Massage and vacation can work wonders now. Reach out for help in all areas.
You're a workaholic on a mission. You have so much responsibility. Take time to head out into the world and dispense new knowledge. Do things for yourself.
The Root/Unconscious/What I'm Standing On (7 of Wands)
In any competitive situation, you come out on top. Now is the time to feel your fear and do it anyway. Make clear where you stand with people. You'll help the situation by making your self clear. A big positive change is coming. This card is about thinking for yourself and independence. Now's the time to be self-employed. Expect an increase in finances. Be sensible with money. Think long term.
You possess the ability to succeed against opposition. The Writer's Card. Tie up loose ends of past. Rely on your own strength and judgment. Time to take the plunge towards self-employment.
The Last Two Weeks (Death)
Transformation and Change. Certain people or situations are not available to you as they once were. Let go of a self-limiting belief or attitude. Accept the change about to happen to make this transition easier. This change and destruction will be followed by renewal. You may benefit from a complete change of field. Do it. Face any problems in your relationship and try to fix it. If you can't, you might have to move on. Reach out for help. Deal with financial changes. Stay healthy. Don't abuse drugs or alcohol. Move through this "dark night of the soul."
Transition. Transformation. Permanent change is required. Are you afraid of the future? Seek out a new occupation or career.
How Others See you in the World (Wheel of Fortune)
This is a very spiritual and Karmically oriented time. Change. You are being called on to follow your dream. Reach out to someone who does what you dream of doing. Talk about how you're feeling in your relationship to get what you want. Financial circumstances are about to change. Save for a rainy day when fortunes change. Hold yourself accountable for what is happening in your life.
Change. Take a gamble. Fates are trying to steer you in a new direction. New work cycle.
Next Two Weeks (5 of Wands)
Competition. Don't be afraid of competing. You have something to offer. You need to believe in yourself stronger than ever now. You may be thinking of making a career change and can be successful. In competition, the only way to lose is not to try. Don't be afraid of the competition. You can come out on top. Play fair. You or your partner may be pursued by many people. Even though money's tight, think about your financial situation calmly. You might not be able to make all of your obligations right now, but you will. Do what you can. Things will be better financially in the next couple of weeks. Give yourself time to rest and reset.
Others want what you want. Don't give in. Competition is stiff and frustrating. Efforts won't go unrewarded. Countering rivals. Ignore the gossip. Significant challenges.
Self-Concept (3 of Swords)
Allow yourself to fully experience any sorrow or joy that comes now. Very deep emotional issues that must be addressed before you can move on. Your whole life is not or should not be what you do professionally. Look in a different field. Ask for help. If there is difficulty in your relationship, know that you are being guided to the relationship that is right for you. If your financially is overwhelming, look at it at a chunk at a time. Ask for assistance. Don't hold onto things that have outlived their purpose. Make room for new blessings to come in.
Heartbreak. Loss. Disappointment. Intense feelings take their control. Letting go of what no longer serves you. Change must be made. Inspiration leads you far afield of where you started.
Hope or Fear (Judgment)
Don't jump to conclusions. Slow down. This can be a time of real spiritual awakening. Your efforts are being watched. If you have been working hard and doing your best, things are about to pay off. Make very clear what you want out of life and love. Money and contracts will be heading your way now. Things should be on a very important, positive upswing. Be open to new ideas and new experiences.
Major reality. Release the past. Awakening from your journey. Learn to mold awakedness with kindness. The journey moves in a spiral that goes up. Waking up to realize real work and path.
Home/Energy You Draw to Yourself (Son of Disks/Knight of Pentacles)
The Knight of Pentacles points to messages, most often about money and finance. You are likely to receive news you have been waiting on and this news is likely to be good. The Knight tells us to pay attention to the mundane and normal parts of our lives. It's a very practical card. You must work within existing systems and accomplish what people want you to accomplish. This is positive in terms of work, but you need to come across as even keeled in interviews, not as a maverick. Money is coming soon and could be coming in from anywhere. Keep your nose to the grindstone and don't bet more than you can afford to lose. Make small positive mundane changes in terms of health.
Set financial goals and stick to them. Headed for professional success and distraction. Steady income. Willingly accepting obligation and taking responsibility for actions.
Next Steps (World)
How good are you at asking for help when you need it? You might feel the weight of the world on your shoulders, but don't feel like you have to go at it alone. You've worked hard and you're almost at the finish line in some way. Don't quit now that you're almost finished. You are in need of rest and relaxation, don't be afraid to take it. You are getting closer to who you really are at your deepest levels. In terms of work, there's a chance that you're working too hard for too little recognition and money. If this is the case blow your own horn a little, don't be afraid and don't be overlooked. You might be finding your relationship rising to greater heights. Your financial blockage is about to break and you'll be flush again soon. Don't go mad with spending when it does happen. Make sure to save. Follow your instincts about what is best for your health. Might be time to find a healer. You are likely to have clear flashes of spiritual insights at this time.
The fool's journey ends. Reached a deep understanding. Most private beliefs affect the world. Completion. Success. Fulfillment. Don't assume ultimate goal has been attained. Travel. Foreign contacts. Overcome limitations.
Overall, a positive reading. I think big changes are on their way. But big rewards are also on their way as a result of these big changes. This was a good reading to have as I'm embarking on another year on this planet. It's a pretty wonderful atmosphere to be in.
I'm breaking through.
I am grateful for friends who offer their help.
I am grateful for awakenings.
I am grateful for a spiritual path.
I am grateful for change.
I am grateful for disruption.
I am grateful for what I didn't know before.
I am grateful for what I know now.
I am grateful for the shock of the new.
I am grateful for inner peace.
I am grateful for curiosity and wonderment.
I am grateful for being born.
I am grateful for this wonderful weather.
I am grateful for the whole day to rest and relax and recoup.
(Gosh, I just had flashbacks to my old days as a Catholic at confession)
I've learned a lot since then. About myself. And about the way I move through the world. Today is my birthday, so my friend Susan decided to do a reading for me to commemorate the occasion. I started a meditation practice. I feel like I have slowed down and distilled my life to the bare essence. Something in the air feels like it's time to build again. I have leveled my life. I have spent the past four years leveling my life and now it's time to build on this land again.
But what will I build? The reading had some indication.
Here's what my last reading was all about:
http://iambacktolife.blogspot.com/2014/08/tarot-card-reading-ask-for-help.html
The last reading was very open ended. I was in the middle of a cycle and I wouldn't be ending it any time soon. Usually, the cards indicate some sort of cycle you're in. The cycle I was in would be continuing on for awhile. There was a feeling of transition and not of resolution. The gist was that things were happening for me. I was meeting people who could help out with my career, but it didn't feel like much was happening other than good will.
This reading felt much more definite. It felt like it is time for things to happen. The theme of the reading is BIG CHANGES. Susan felt bad about the reading because it didn't feel like good things were on the horizon. I remember the other times of big change in my life: my break up, my father's death, leaving a long time job. And those big changes brought about a whole new perspective in my life. I like big change because it means that what I have been working on steadily for a period of time was finally coming to fruition. I was finally giving birth to the next stage in my life. And nothing is born without labor and trauma. We don't come into this world delicately. We are forced out through a human being or we are cut out of her. It's violent. Plants break through the earth. Nothing is born without disruption.
So I go into this next phase with much excitement. Things are about to happen.
Where I am Right Now (King of Swords)
The King of Swords points to a very forceful energy. You may need to change something about your behavior, thoughts and/or expectations. If you're looking for work, a stereotypical man's man may be able to help. But you have to impress him on every level. In relationship to love, you have to accept your beloved as who he is. In terms of finances, face the reality of your situation head on. There is a need for generosity towards others.
Cut away from an old belief that has outlived its purpose. Listen to your intuition. A boss or co-worker won't mince words.
Setting the Stage (Tower)
The Tower is a card about Change. It seems that some people who used to be there for you aren't in the same way. Change is a part of life, this isn't dire. If you've been building castles in the air, it may be time for them to come crashing to earth. This is only a problem if you let it be. You'll make it through time time. Realize you've got all the resources you need. Control your temper. Sudden reversals can happen now. This can be an indicator that a relationship is about to end. Keep communication clear if you are in a relationship you want to stay in. Find out exactly what you are dealing with financially. Deal with any problems in a straight forward manner. Careful with drugs and alcohol. Keep a positive attitude.
Breaking a part a structure that keeps you bound. There's an inner urge to break free. Violent upheaval. Sweeping life clean. Now doors open. New chapters begin. A fresh start.
What I'm Learning This Month (10 of Wands)
You feel like you are carrying a heavy burden. How can you lighten your load? Don't do too much. Give yourself a break, you have been working too hard. If you've been looking for a new position, don't lose heart. You won't fail. Something in your relationship needs to be examined. Take the time. Make a financial plan. Massage and vacation can work wonders now. Reach out for help in all areas.
You're a workaholic on a mission. You have so much responsibility. Take time to head out into the world and dispense new knowledge. Do things for yourself.
The Root/Unconscious/What I'm Standing On (7 of Wands)
In any competitive situation, you come out on top. Now is the time to feel your fear and do it anyway. Make clear where you stand with people. You'll help the situation by making your self clear. A big positive change is coming. This card is about thinking for yourself and independence. Now's the time to be self-employed. Expect an increase in finances. Be sensible with money. Think long term.
You possess the ability to succeed against opposition. The Writer's Card. Tie up loose ends of past. Rely on your own strength and judgment. Time to take the plunge towards self-employment.
The Last Two Weeks (Death)
Transformation and Change. Certain people or situations are not available to you as they once were. Let go of a self-limiting belief or attitude. Accept the change about to happen to make this transition easier. This change and destruction will be followed by renewal. You may benefit from a complete change of field. Do it. Face any problems in your relationship and try to fix it. If you can't, you might have to move on. Reach out for help. Deal with financial changes. Stay healthy. Don't abuse drugs or alcohol. Move through this "dark night of the soul."
Transition. Transformation. Permanent change is required. Are you afraid of the future? Seek out a new occupation or career.
How Others See you in the World (Wheel of Fortune)
This is a very spiritual and Karmically oriented time. Change. You are being called on to follow your dream. Reach out to someone who does what you dream of doing. Talk about how you're feeling in your relationship to get what you want. Financial circumstances are about to change. Save for a rainy day when fortunes change. Hold yourself accountable for what is happening in your life.
Change. Take a gamble. Fates are trying to steer you in a new direction. New work cycle.
Next Two Weeks (5 of Wands)
Competition. Don't be afraid of competing. You have something to offer. You need to believe in yourself stronger than ever now. You may be thinking of making a career change and can be successful. In competition, the only way to lose is not to try. Don't be afraid of the competition. You can come out on top. Play fair. You or your partner may be pursued by many people. Even though money's tight, think about your financial situation calmly. You might not be able to make all of your obligations right now, but you will. Do what you can. Things will be better financially in the next couple of weeks. Give yourself time to rest and reset.
Others want what you want. Don't give in. Competition is stiff and frustrating. Efforts won't go unrewarded. Countering rivals. Ignore the gossip. Significant challenges.
Self-Concept (3 of Swords)
Allow yourself to fully experience any sorrow or joy that comes now. Very deep emotional issues that must be addressed before you can move on. Your whole life is not or should not be what you do professionally. Look in a different field. Ask for help. If there is difficulty in your relationship, know that you are being guided to the relationship that is right for you. If your financially is overwhelming, look at it at a chunk at a time. Ask for assistance. Don't hold onto things that have outlived their purpose. Make room for new blessings to come in.
Heartbreak. Loss. Disappointment. Intense feelings take their control. Letting go of what no longer serves you. Change must be made. Inspiration leads you far afield of where you started.
Hope or Fear (Judgment)
Don't jump to conclusions. Slow down. This can be a time of real spiritual awakening. Your efforts are being watched. If you have been working hard and doing your best, things are about to pay off. Make very clear what you want out of life and love. Money and contracts will be heading your way now. Things should be on a very important, positive upswing. Be open to new ideas and new experiences.
Major reality. Release the past. Awakening from your journey. Learn to mold awakedness with kindness. The journey moves in a spiral that goes up. Waking up to realize real work and path.
Home/Energy You Draw to Yourself (Son of Disks/Knight of Pentacles)
The Knight of Pentacles points to messages, most often about money and finance. You are likely to receive news you have been waiting on and this news is likely to be good. The Knight tells us to pay attention to the mundane and normal parts of our lives. It's a very practical card. You must work within existing systems and accomplish what people want you to accomplish. This is positive in terms of work, but you need to come across as even keeled in interviews, not as a maverick. Money is coming soon and could be coming in from anywhere. Keep your nose to the grindstone and don't bet more than you can afford to lose. Make small positive mundane changes in terms of health.
Set financial goals and stick to them. Headed for professional success and distraction. Steady income. Willingly accepting obligation and taking responsibility for actions.
Next Steps (World)
How good are you at asking for help when you need it? You might feel the weight of the world on your shoulders, but don't feel like you have to go at it alone. You've worked hard and you're almost at the finish line in some way. Don't quit now that you're almost finished. You are in need of rest and relaxation, don't be afraid to take it. You are getting closer to who you really are at your deepest levels. In terms of work, there's a chance that you're working too hard for too little recognition and money. If this is the case blow your own horn a little, don't be afraid and don't be overlooked. You might be finding your relationship rising to greater heights. Your financial blockage is about to break and you'll be flush again soon. Don't go mad with spending when it does happen. Make sure to save. Follow your instincts about what is best for your health. Might be time to find a healer. You are likely to have clear flashes of spiritual insights at this time.
The fool's journey ends. Reached a deep understanding. Most private beliefs affect the world. Completion. Success. Fulfillment. Don't assume ultimate goal has been attained. Travel. Foreign contacts. Overcome limitations.
Overall, a positive reading. I think big changes are on their way. But big rewards are also on their way as a result of these big changes. This was a good reading to have as I'm embarking on another year on this planet. It's a pretty wonderful atmosphere to be in.
I'm breaking through.
I am grateful for friends who offer their help.
I am grateful for awakenings.
I am grateful for a spiritual path.
I am grateful for change.
I am grateful for disruption.
I am grateful for what I didn't know before.
I am grateful for what I know now.
I am grateful for the shock of the new.
I am grateful for inner peace.
I am grateful for curiosity and wonderment.
I am grateful for being born.
I am grateful for this wonderful weather.
I am grateful for the whole day to rest and relax and recoup.
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